It was a horrendous day: changing the passwords on everything from bank accounts to British Airways' exec club; notifying the Passport Office; clearing up the mess of papers and checking for more missing items whilst feeling oh so vulnerable with the memory sticks in my jeans pockets. I was fairly confident that the burglars had not got what they were looking for, which meant they would be back. James was adamant that for strategic negotiating reasons we should not reveal what we have on Vijay's transactions to LRI at this stage, so we could not preempt further attempts to seize the evidence by simply sending the documents to LRI's Board, the press and anyone else we could think of, which was my first reaction.
James called in his firm's security advisors and his offices were swept for bugs. Then they came to my flat. They found two rather obvious bugs and a more subtle third. I was warned off using my mobile phone in the flat, or talking on the landline near the windows or using any nearby phone boxes. I could feel my stress levels rising and a sort of unarticulated panic. When I went out of the flat, I was constantly glancing over my shoulder; the skin between my shoulderblades burned from the pressure of unseen eyes; my ears were so tuned to footsteps behind me that I could not concentrate on conversation with shopkeepers. All I could think of was that 'they' must be watching me and 'they' would return.
By teatime I was in quite a state; I neither felt safe in the flat nor out of it and I thought wistfully of the peace of the past few days in the sunny woods increasingly flushed with spring. As darkness fell I packed, called a cab and raced down the stairs, certain I was under observation. By changing cabs three times, I made an erratic way to the mainline station and jumped on the first train heading in the right direction. After a long walk from the last bus, I wriggled through the gorse tunnel just before midnight.
The clearing was peaceful and the quavering hoots of tawny owls backwards and forwards across the fields were the loudest sounds. Moonlight feel on the tent which looked untouched, the inside zipped up as I had left it. I wondered where Stalky was. The biscuits I had left for him, expecting to be back within twenty-four hours, had gone and the 'porch' of the tent was untenanted. I crawled into my sleeping bag almost fully clothed and fell into sleep as densely as a smooth stone slipping into a pond.
